Losing it again!

I can officially say that I have earned my 50lb weight back! Total WW loss is 50.8 lbs. Total loss 80lbs! I am thrilled! I weigh less now than I weighed in high school!

Well, I did go to the doctor about my knee. As it happens, my knee was feeling fine when I went, but I did tell her how it was feeling. She did a though exam, was able to hear the grinding noise. She was concerned about my weight loss, but I assured her that it was intentional. Strangely enough, she acted like she was surprised that a person could lose 80 lbs in a year's time. She did blood tests for both my insulin resistance and arthritis. The blood work came back great except for the sed rate was too high (35). Based on my sed rate, she did some further testing that came back ok.

My insulin level which was 29 two years ago is now 10.2! My A1C was 5.2 which is well within normal levels.

Anyway, she didn't have any suggestions for my knee other than take Naproxy Sodium or Ibuprofen. Oh well...

Another gain, will this ever stop?

Yup, after hitting my 50lb loss, I have gained 3 lbs of it back. I know I haven't been totally behaving myself, but still it is frustrating since I have really kicked up the exercise routine in the past couple of weeks. But I will not quit! Onward, I go!

Another disappointment this week is the 5K that I signed up for on Saturday. I signed up with my sister and a friend, but the weather has turned dangerously cold and is not expected to ease up until after Sunday. So, it looks like my group is not going to participate.

I also found out today that I have degenerative arthritis in my right knee and possibly a torn ligament. The doctor didn't seem concerned about it and told me that while I shouldn't run, walking the 5K would be fine. Since I have been running recently as part of the Wii Active 30 day challenge, I may have been causing more damage to my knee. She gave me some exercises to work on to build the strength in my legs. I'm hoping to get this knee out of pain, so I can do another 5K soon.

Frustrated and Going to the Doctor

I am so frustrated with my TMJ and knee that I finally broke down and scheduled an appointment for Thursday. My knee has been bothering me for about a year or so now. I never went to the doctor before about it because:

1. I'm a chicken
2. I didn't want to hear, "Well, if you weren't 339 lbs., your knee would feel better." 
3. Last time I complained about my knee, the doctor gave me a big old shot right in the joint...that was about 15 or more years ago...did I mention that I'm a chicken?
4. My general practice doctor, a woman who I loved, moved to another city about 2 hours away last April and I got a great letter from the clinic stating that my doctor was no longer with the practice and that I was going to have to see a male doctor that I don't know...did I mention that I don't like change?

So, here I am at 259ish and about to walk a 5K in a couple of weeks. I have majorly kicked up that exercise program recently in preparation and just can't ignore the pain and sounds that my knee is making.  So, yeah, I might hear, "Lose weight" when I go. I may have to deal with a shot. I know I have to deal with a new doctor, but I'm doing it.

I'm also going to discuss my TMJ. I don't care what they have to do to help me with my TMJ, but something has to be done. I first found out that I had TMJ a couple of years ago and was prescribed a muscle relaxer and Naproxen. I ran out of drugs about 5 months ago and haven't really needed any thing more than ibuprofen. I do yoga to relieve stress, eat soft food, avoid overusing my jaw and taking OTC meds. I gave up singing because of the pain, then was asked if I would sing for the church's Christmas program...I agreed and have been in pain ever since. Something needs to be done!

So, I'm off to the doctor on Thursday, scared that I'm going to have to defend my weight, scared that I won't like this new doctor and basically just frustrated about losing my old doctor. It is no wonder that obese people don't go to their doctor? I think that I'm more afraid of going now than when I was blissfully oblivious to my obesity. So, do I let them know that I have lost 80lbs in the past year? Or should I call my old clinic and ask them to send my file over? I don't know what to expect and that scares me.